Matt liked to bow hunt, study music, ride his dirt bike, play cards and the guitar, discuss politics and tell stories. He loved to write – little vignettes, lists of do’s and don’ts, random rants, poems and daily journal entries chronicling his struggle with addiction.
“I found this notebook and I filled it with time, the days of my life. I wonder if it will ever mean anything to anyone except myself. Perhaps you are one of my children or grand-children reading this, what do you think of me then? Are you anything like this young man? Fill your own book with time, fill it full and pass it on…”
“He said the strangest thing. He said, “If anything happens to me the journals will explain everything. And I’m like “what are you talking about they’ll explain everything. And he says “well, I write everything that happens in there every day. So if anything were to happen to me, I would write about it, and you would know what happened.”
“When you are close to someone who is addicted and if you really value that person’s life then you need to try to get them to stop using drugs, that needs to be your mission in that situation, or you can just expect that there is a chance that they are going to die.”
“Opiate addiction is something that requires more than just a couple of months of treatment. People who have the money, they can, they can get that treatment. But if you’re Joe Blow, there’s nothing, nothing.”
“He was different person. I didn’t know that it’s because of drugs. He didn’t behave like Matt.”
“I met Matt in the Vilas county jail and we kept each other sane, I guess you could say. He would tell me one thing and then the next day he’d change the story. He was one of those types of guys. So it was very hard to read him and find out where he was coming from and whether or not he was really telling you the truth.”
“When he went to jail Mom just told me it was a big misunderstanding. And then I kept seeing it on TV and I thought well it’s just a little bit more but I didn’t press for any more.
I later found out they said he was gonna like a rob a store and everything and I just didn’t believe ’em. Didn’t sound like the man I knew.”